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The Right Internet Income Opportunity Can Change the Course of Your Life! You may feel despair, or even cheated right now. The correct we...


The Right Internet Income Opportunity Can Change the Course of Your Life!

You may feel despair, or even cheated right now. The correct web salary opportunity is directly around the bend - you simply know it! Be that as it may, as hard as you attempt, all you run into are tricks and frustrations. You realize that millions have made their fortune through a web salary opportunity, yet you can't make sense of how they did it. Presently what do you do? You are resolved to make it work. Bravo, that is one positive development.

Home Business Opportunities Are Around Every Corner

The web is gigantic; there are a huge number of chances for you to turn into a fruitful business person. Home business openings work, contingent upon your inclinations, interests, and ability to learn. No degree or past experience is fundamental. For whatever length of time that you are driven and energetic about improving your life, there is nothing to stop you!

This is what is so energizing about finding the ideal web salary opportunity - the achievement of your future lies directly in your own hands. You make of your life what you wish; you can pull in progress.

How Might You Make Money On the Internet?

Everybody needs a response to that question. You realize that it's conceivable, however you simply don't have the foggiest idea how to make the progress that you know a great many others have accomplished. You're similarly as brilliant, right? Obviously you are. The notable victories and big-time players began right where you are presently - with a fantasy and a will to succeed.

You can bring in cash on the web with almost any plan of action. Partner promoting, blogging, direct advertising and blogging have made moguls out of numerous common individuals simply like you.

Picking up the Skills Necessary to Fulfill Your Dreams

Regardless of whether you need to bring in additional cash at home, or seek after your very own fruitful business, it doesn't occur coincidentally. On the off chance that you need to be probably the greatest accomplishment in member showcasing, follow in the strides of somebody who has just done it. Pursue their email list; observe cautiously all that they do. At that point, simply copy!

This is valid for about each web salary opportunity. On the off chance that you study what the fruitful do sufficiently long, it will soak in.

An immediate plan of action has helped thousands change the course of their lives. Whenever you join an immediate plan of action opportunity, you ought to be given the entirety of the preparation and apparatuses you have to ascend to the top. Regardless of whether you have never partaken right now, an extraordinary support will ensure that you succeed - in light of the fact that it's imperative to his/her prosperity also.

All around suppose right off the bat that right now you might want to start a new business for yourself since you've had enough. You...


All around suppose right off the bat that right now you might want to start a new business for yourself since you've had enough. You've had enough of your chief, or, you see your manager getting rich while you're doing all the drudgery to make him rich while he's off playing golf and you realize that you can show improvement over him - isn't that so?

What independent company openings would you be able to search for?

Well the response to this is truly thousands. In the event that you've decided that you need to make the following stride and venture out all alone yet you don't have any thought of what to do straightaway - my recommendation is except if you have a considerable amount of capital saved and you are just somewhat despondent busy working, don't make this stride until you have an independent company intend to progress in the direction of.

Be that as it may, in the event that you have a thought of what independent venture opportunity you might want to set up then after you've defined an arrangement - take the plunge, however simply ensure you've crossed all your T's first. It's a major advance to make and each stride is going to cost you cash so simply don't hurry into it and commit errors that can be evaded.

So what independent company openings would you be able to search for? Relies upon what your inclinations are, the manner by which serious these interests can be and on the off chance that they are productive.

Diverse independent company opportunity specialties:

Alright, here's certain models:

Internet advertising:

You can begin reasonably inexpensively an online business. What expenses are included here? All things considered, with an online shop you've recently beaten the business land owner in charging you a heap of lease for his store, in any case, except if you can do it without anyone's help, you will must have a site created. Nowadays they are significantly less expensive than they were ten years back yet in the event that you can't do one yourself hope to in any case pay anyplace between $1500 to $10,000 contingent upon how complex you need it.

Discount: You set up a business wholesaling to retailers. You source a few items either locally or bringing in from China or India. Favorable circumstances to wholesaling are that you can sell and administration a great deal of retail locations. You can preliminary new items and you don't really need to be anchored to one spot. You can begin by working in a modest region like your carport. You can consolidate wholesaling with your own online store.

Hindrances can be that you may need to stock a ton of item. Benefit can be lower than retail say 20 - 35% relying upon your opposition. You must be cautious that your put away item doesn't lose its edge since it's never again in vogue or as been supplanted by a superior item.

Retail:

Points of interest of setting up a retail location is that as long as you are loading a low rivalry item or something absolutely one of a kind, the individuals will charge through your entryway with wallets close by. Likewise, in the event that you have one of these two focal points you can charge a premium for your result of in addition to 100% increase.

Impediments however is that you for the most part need to discover an area where there's bunches of road person on foot traffic and that can be over the top expensive to lease. Additionally, except if you don't eat or need to go to a washroom throughout the day, you will need to enlist staff to help you and that can be costly.

Rundown of private venture openings:

You have a great deal of pick out there for independent company openings however first explain what you need to target. On the web, discount or retail, or a blend of every one of them.

Envision a simple business opportunity so natural that anybody can do it and produce monstrous measures of cash online from their home in t...


Envision a simple business opportunity so natural that anybody can do it and produce monstrous measures of cash online from their home in the blink of an eye. That is the magnificence of web business. It's never been less complex to win an online pay than it is today.

The primary concern is, you can take alternate routes in pretty much everything throughout everyday life and in light of the fact that you locate a simple business opportunity doesn't imply that is what it's everything about. Compromising and attempting to make easy money consistently reverse discharges and you wind up burning through significant time and cash attempting to succeed. Whenever you take a gander at a simple business opportunity, take a gander at it as simply that. A business. Do you get paid to golf? Do you get paid to instant message your companions? Do you get paid to sit in front of the TV? Didn't think so. Treat it like a side interest, and it will pay you like one. Then again, treat it like a business, and it will pay you like a gainful, flouring business.

There are such a significant number of advantages and favorable circumstances of acquiring cash through a simple business opportunity from home.

So what are the advantages of acquiring on the web pay through a simple business opportunity? Lets investigate:

Make mechanized pay.

Work from home.

Save time exertion as it were.

No requirement for a structure and representatives.

Low beginning up costs. Now and again no expenses.

No chief.

Invest more energy with the family.

Appreciate all the duty focal points of business possession.

No stock or physical items to oversee.

Procuring potential is boundless.

Less pressure.

Greater security. You can't get laid off or terminated.

Make numerous pay streams

To comprehend a simple business opportunity you should initially get that in the event that it were genuinely that simple, everybody would do it. How far and the amount you make online is totally reliant on you and your endeavors.

It is presumably best to follow a framework that is as of now set up and hit the ground running when beginning. Working your simple business opportunity without a framework will before long transform it into a troublesome, disappointing business opportunity.

Following a SYSTEM implies: Saving Your Self Time Energy Money

You need to work savvy. Not really hard. For what reason would anybody need to experience the battles and hardships of attempting to make sense of something without any preparation? Why not follow something that is now spread out for you to prevail in? That is working shrewd.

I have never been much of a dog person. We always had pets growing up. Mom and Dad had a white German Shepherd, Casper, that they got befo...

I have never been much of a dog person. We always had pets growing up. Mom and Dad had a white German Shepherd, Casper, that they got before Amy and I were born. On top of Casper, we had 3 cats, multiple gold fish, a dog we inherited, chickens, and too many rabbits to count. Needless to say, I was perfectly content with never getting another pet for the rest of my life. Until Madison asked for a dog.

She was about 4 years old and started asking me for a puppy dog. I have no idea what brought all this about, though Shane would argue that I put the idea in her head but honest to goodness, I did not. Shane was adamant that we were not getting a dog, so I started researching breeds and breeders.

I decided on the toy poodle breed. I wanted a dog that would not shed dog hair all over the house and one that would always be smaller than Madison. I never wanted her to feel scared of a dog in her own home.

I called several different breeders and explained the disabilities Madison had. None of them seemed to really care/understand, until I called a breeder in Augusta, Georgia. She immediately wanted to see pictures and a video of Madison so that she could fully understand what we needed. I knew then we had found the right person. I had my mind set on an apricot toy poodle. She called when the liter was born and said that the liter had 3 puppies. Two apricot, one black, and that the black puppy she thought would be perfect for Madison. He was the runt of the liter so he would always be small and not get over 4 pounds.

Shane finally agreed with one stipulation, that the dog was absolutely not allowed to sleep in the bed with us.

The weeks leading up to us bringing Bo home were very exciting. Every day, multiple times a day, Madison would ask about this "puppy dog" and wonder where he was. I am pretty sure she thought we were lying to her because this dog that we had been talking about was not around.

We first named Bo, Bentley, but Madison would only call him "puppy dog." Bentley was too hard for her to say, so we named him Bo. The two of them bonded instantly. Bo learned very quickly to duck under the walker. Madison only ran over him one time and he learned then how fast he needed to run when she would spin that walker around. He was always by her side. Bo never tried to nibble at Madison's fingers or toes and has never chewed up any of her toys. Only two pappies (pacifiers). 

I miss hearing Madison saying "Bo! Kennel!" whenever we were leaving to go somewhere. The last year of Madison's life, I truly realized how smart dogs are and what they can sense. The day Madison's oxygen tubing got tied up in her walker wheel and was pulled from her concentrator, I knew that something was wrong first because of how Bo was acting. It was only a few seconds later that Madison became distressed because she wasn't getting any oxygen. 

I truly believe the day we left to go by ambulance to Birmingham, Madison knew that she wouldn't see Bo again. We were loading up and Madison kept saying, "Able! Bo! Hug!" I knew we needed to get on the road but I rushed Madison back inside and Bo came running to her. I picked him up and she gave him the biggest hug and said "Bye Bo! Love you!" and kissed his cold nose.

Some good friends of ours came and got Bo while we were in Birmingham and we asked them to bring him home before we got back. I knew that it would be difficult to see Bo and not have Madison with us. As soon as we walked in, he was frantically looking for her. I pulled the shirt out that she wearing when she passed away in and gave it to him to smell. He carried it to our bedroom and just layed on top of it for awhile.

That night, when we were getting ready to go to bed, all of our normal sounds were gone. The humming of the oxygen concentrator, the we had listened to every night for almost 4 years, was gone. Bo was in his kennel, whining, which he never did. Shane went and got him and put him in the bed with us. Shane and I were both crying with it being our first night at home without Madison. From that day on, Bo never spent another night in his kennel. He sleeps with us every night and every night, he sleeps right where Madison slept each night. 

I always knew there was a strong bond between Bo and Madison but I now have a much greater appreciation for it. It was about a week after Madison passed away, I pulled out my ipad and watched some old videos of her. I was in the kitchen and as soon as Bo heard her voice, I could hear him running down the hallway. He ran through the kitchen, into the den, down the other hallway. I knew then that he was looking for Madison. It broke my heart when he realized that her sweet voice was coming from the ipad in my hands.   

Today is Bo's fourth birthday and I am so happy to have him as a part of our family. He has mourned Madison right along with us. He very rarely leaves my side and I have become "that" person that takes their dog with them everywhere. He comes to work with me everyday and it always perched on his own chair right beside my desk. Everybody thinks that their dog is the best dog but Bo truly is the BEST dog. 








Bo's first day with us.  He was very scared of Madison's walker so he stayed camped under the dinning room table for the first week. 


Bo and Madison getting to know each other. 

Bo and Madison's morning ritual. 


Bo supervising Madison and Aubrey in the pool.
The one thing Bo did chew.  Madison's pappies. 

Bo posing in the back yard.



Bo and Madison just hanging out before bed time.


Bo always thought he needed to ride with Madison in her car seat and she always agreed.



Bo giving Madison kisses during her breathing treatment.  He made her breathing treatments every 3 hours so much better. 

Sleeping right beside Madison as she feel asleep during her breathing treatment.


This picture was taken right after Madison's tubing got disconnected.  As soon as she was
getting oxygen again, Madison ran over to her machine and gave it a big hug and a kiss, with Bo right behind her. 



Bo getting settled into our bed.


Bo working hard at work.  Notice he is laying on one of Madison's blankets too.


















Shane and I are celebrating 9 years of marriage today, June 3.  I first met Shane when I was in the 10th grade, when our family went to a fr...

Shane and I are celebrating 9 years of marriage today, June 3.  I first met Shane when I was in the 10th grade, when our family went to a friend's hunting lease in Georgia.  As soon as I met him, I was smitten.  There is just something about a man in camo!  When we were leaving, I told my Dad then that I was going to marry that Shane Riley boy!  Of course, Dad said no because Shane was 8 years older than me.  Lucky for me, there is 8 years between  Mom and Dad so he really couldn't say too much! 

Every time our family vehicles needed any type of repairs, I would quickly volunteer to take them to Corner Tire Store!  I may or may not have thrown a few nails and screws in the driveway too!  Just kidding. 

Shane finally came to his senses after I graduated high school (which I guess being 8 years older than me is a good thing because otherwise that would be gross and illegal)!  He asked me out on a date and the rest is history. 

I would like to sit here and type that the past 9 years have been full of marital bliss. That it has been the perfect life.  That it has been everything we dreamed it would be, but the truth is that it has been 9 years of extreme heartache.  

Going into our marriage we felt prepared for the trials any marriage may face.  However, receiving a terminal diagnosis on your daughter, is not something any parent can be prepared for.  We were not prepared for the diagnosis Madison received and the short life that she was expected to live, but because of our shared faith in Jesus Christ, we knew where to place our heartache. 

When we got married, our dreams were worldly dreams.  Our dreams were what everyone else dreams: a house full of kids; an SUV filled with car seats and toys; a hectic schedule; weekends full of birthday parties and ball games; etc.  Our dreams have now changed into Heavenly dreams.  Longing to be with our Savior in Heaven, where this void that we now have, and always will, every waking hour, will be no more.  No more tears, no more pain. 

A lot of people don't understand it, and some may think that we are not dealing with our grief, but we are both more than ready to go to Heaven.  I am ready for the faith that I have to become my sight.  We hold on to the promises God has made to believers and know that God is stronger than our fears and stronger than death.  Because of these promises, Shane and I are able to get up everyday, with a smile on our face, because we can confidently say that the grave is not the end.  These wounds that we have so deep in our hearts will not defeat us.

One of my favorite singers, Amy Gann Henderson, (everyone is referred to by their Facebook name) sang this song at church a few Sundays ago.  The truth of these words have been heavy on my heart.  

Truth is I'm weak
No strength to fight
No tears to cry
Even if I tried
But still my soul
Refuses to die
One touch will change my life
Take me to the King
I don't have much to bring
My heart's torn in pieces
It's my offering
Lay me at the throne
Leave me there alone
To gaze upon Your glory
And sing to You this song
Please take me to the King
The glory's not for us
It's all for You

~Take me to the King

I LOVE these lyrics!  This is exactly how we feel. TAKE ME TO THE KING!  Yes, I am ready to go to Heaven; I am ready to go because that is where Jesus is, and having Madison and Dad there....well, that is just an added bonus! 

Even though these 9 years have consisted of broken dreams and more heartache than we ever thought possible, we refuse to say that we have suffered great loss.  Yes, Madison is no longer here with us but she is not lost by any means.  We know exactly where she is and we know that she is alive and well.

We trusted, and continue to trust, in God's perfect plan and not our own.  We believe that God is stronger than our brokenness.  I praise Jesus for this journey that He is continuing to lead us through, and know that His dreams for us are much greater than we could ever have for ourselves.

Just take me to the King.

"But our citizenship is in Heaven."
~Philippians 3:20

"And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes;  there shall be no more death nor sorrow nor crying.  There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away."
~Revelation 21:4

"Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind...for by the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think with sober judgement, each according to the measure of faith that God has assigned."
~ Romans 12:2-3



June 3, 2006
Oh Happy Day!

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." ~Jame...

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience."
~James 1:2-3

"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory of which shall be revealed in us."
~Romans 8:18

Madison's one year anniversary of she being in Heaven is quickly approaching.  October 22.  It is a day that I have dreaded since the day she passed away.  I truly believed that Jesus would have already come back by now or that he would have called me home, and that I would be with Madison again.  The reality of her not being here with us is hitting me hard this week.  It has almost been 365 days since I held her in my arms, kissed her good morning, heard her sweet voice, warmed up her bottle, rocked her to sleep, worshipped with her, washed and folded her clothes, gave her a bath, fixed her hair, changed her diaper, told her I love her, prayed with her, fed her, took a nap with her, buckled her into her car seat, cleaned her bottles, picked up her toys, heard the sound of her walker going through the house, tucked her into bed, snuggled with her, held her hand.  I could go on and on.  I feel like the heartache that I am feeling now is so much worse than it was the day she went to Heaven. 

Why am I dreading this day so much?  Madison surely isn't dreading this day and she surely isn't sad about being in Heaven.  I know that if she had a choice to come back to us on Earth she would not want to.  I would not want to either.  She is free from the bondage and the limitations of I-Cell disease. 

Looking back on this year, it feels like it has dragged on.  Before, time was flying by.  Every day we got to spend with Madison we cherished.  We lived every day do the fullest because we knew our time was going to be limited.  I have finally learned to stay off social media sites for holidays:   Thanksgiving, Christmas, Mother's Day, Father's Day, even the first day of school.  It feels like your heart is being ripped out to see families celebrating with their children, knowing that we will never get to take another picture of Madison.  I took a ton of pictures while she was here and still feel like I do not have enough.

There has been so much change in our life over the past year and it has been change that we didn't ask for.  There is an emptiness in our hearts and in our home.  It is with us every where we go.  Yeah, we still smile and have a good time but that ache and longing is still there and always will be.  Shane and I continue to trust God through this heartache and he has showered us with so much grace and mercy.  He has given us so much peace. 

I have not gotten to the point yet where I don't relive our final days and hours with her.  There are some that have haunted me and some that give me tremendous peace. 

I don't think a Sunday morning has passed that at 7:30 I don't think about Madison. I remember so clearly the sound of her pulse ox machine going off and watching the numbers quickly drop...90, 85, 80, 70, 60, 50. I remember the look in her eyes when she couldn't breathe and me scrambling to get her breathing again. And when she finally did, I remember sitting on the floor with her in my arms, hugging each other, and crying together. I remember Terry and Ta running in and I handing her to Terry while I had the biggest meltdown I had ever had. I started pacing the floors, crying, not knowing what to do. I vividly remember the look on her face. She just stayed in Terry's arms and let me have my moment and she looked at me like, "What are we going to do next, Abel?"

As we rode in the ambulance to Birmingham, Madison slept on my chest most of the way.  I never thought that would be the last time she slept in my arms.  I also have not been able to get the image out of my head of them having to bag her when she couldn't breathe. The look in her eyes as I laid beside her telling her it was going to be okay.  I felt completely helpless. I think a part of me knew that there wasn't much more we could do, but I did not want to believe it. A mother is supposed to be able to fix everything and this, I could not.

When these images come into my head, I quickly have to turn my thoughts to her final moments.   
I will sometimes just start singing one of Madison's favorite songs, Victory is Mine.  "I told Satan.  Get thee behind because VICTORY TODAY IS MINE!"  Satan wants us to be sad and hopeless.  How can we be sad knowing that Madison is ALIVE and rejoicing in Heaven?  It brings tears to my eyes and I have no words to even try to describe the moments when she told us "I see Jesus."  Then for her to tell Shane and I that she would see us later.  She was not afraid and she definitely wasn't sad to be leaving us.  She knew that this was not goodbye.  She even I said, "I'll see you later!" 

Allie just told me recently that after Madison said she saw Jesus the second time, she took her shoes off because she knew she was standing on holy ground.

Two weeks after Madison arrived home, I felt like I needed to clean out her closet and put all her toys away. Every person grieves differently and for me, this is what I needed to do, and something I wanted to do by myself. I took all her little dresses off the hanger and neatly folded them and put them into a big storage container. As I was was folding them, I was flooded with memories of the day she wore each dress. Her other clothes did not get folded as neatly. I couldn't handle the idea of it being the last time I would be folding and putting away her clothes for good. I just took the drawers and dumped them in to the containers. When I got to her toys, for every stuffed animal I put up, Bo pulled out two. I did let him keep one of her stuffed animals.

Allie came over when I finished and we moved all the boxes to the storage room. They still sit there. About 4 months ago I was having a pretty rough day, just missing Madison so much. I went to the storage room, opened up the box that had her clothes in it and grabbed a shirt just so I could smell her again but the smell was gone. I can't fully describe the feeling, but it wasn't good. It just made me realize that time is moving on. I have all this stuff to remind me of her, but none of that can take the place of the memories that I will hold forever.

I often think about Madison's life and the legacy that she has left behind. I love getting stopped by people asking me if I am Madison's mom. I can't even tell you how much my heart swells when I answer yes. I love hearing stories of how she has touched so many people. People I don't even know.

With life going on, it has become a huge fear of mine that people will forget Madison. People are sometimes afraid to bring her name up because they never know how we will take it. Truth be known, I never know how we will take it. Sometimes we will laugh, and other times we may cry. We never know how each story will affect us, but we still love to hear them.

It feels like it has been another lifetime ago that I was a mom. My worries and anxieties that I have are now completely different.  Even though I know there is no cold or virus that can harm her anymore, I still hear every cough and sneeze. I run away from a runny nose, and sanitize the house after company leaves and I still use hand sanitizer and Lysol spray ALL THE TIME! 

It was put on our hearts a few months ago to start teaching Sunday School. I mentioned it to Ta for her to see what was available. Selfishly, I prayed for anything but first grade. We didn't want first grade because this is the class Madison would have been in. These were the group of kids that Madison should grow up with, go on youth trips with, graduate with, etc. Well, God has great sense of humor and we got first grade.

I can't tell you the joy that this Sunday School class has been to me and Shane in just the few short weeks we have taught it.  Some of Madison's favorites, Reed and Mason are in this class.  We love to hear them talk about and remember Madison.  It is our prayer that as these children continue to grow up, that they will look at her entire life and see God's faithfulness and love that He has given us.  I pray that they see that Shane and I are grieving Madison, but that we are grieving her with hope.  That they see and understand the peace that we have been given.  Peace that truly does surpass all understanding.  That they will come to understand that when you are a believer in Jesus Christ, any fear of death that you may have is gone. 

I have not been to her grave yet and don't know when I will.  I drive by there almost every day.  I don't have the desire to go by there. She is not there. It is just her shell. Shane and I have not even ordered her headstone.  We are not ready to yet but we will know when we are.   The grave is not the end.  This life that we are living is not where God intends for us to be.  I can promise you, Madison is more alive and well today, than any day she was here on Earth.

Sometimes I feel that people may think I am crazy or even suicidal with how much I long to be in Heaven.  I'm not either of those things, but I can't wait to go. I know that one day I will be reunited with my Savior and with Madison and I can't wait to have her in my arms again.  And until He returns or calls me Home, I'll proclaim His goodness, love, and faithfulness and praise Him in both joy and suffering.

I am not going to be sad on October 22.  I am going to celebrate this day because this is the day that we had prayed for. For so long, we have prayed for Madison's complete healing and our prayer was  answered! We are going to celebrate this day just like we do her birthday. November 16th is the day God entrusted us with her and October 22 is the day we had to give her back.

I can't even begin to tell you how proud I am to have been her "Abel" for almost six years. There is no greater role that I have enjoyed the most than this. It has been a journey that didn't go quite as I planned but one that I am so thankful I got to do and continue to do. I pray for strength to share her story at every opportunity that I get.

I can't help but think of that day when the glory of Heaven is in my view. I picture her turning around saying. "Hey, Abel!" As if I have never left her side. To see that great cloud of witnesses who have gone before, welcoming me home. Where none of this sadness and heartache that we have right now will matter any more. What a glorious day that will be!

"For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways," says the Lord.
~Isaiah 55:8

"But if we hope for what we do not see, we eagerly wait for it with perseverance."
~Romans 8:25

"These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world."
~John 16:33




After we received Madison's diagnosis in 2009, I started looking at life completely different.  I learned very quickly what really matte...

After we received Madison's diagnosis in 2009, I started looking at life completely different.  I learned very quickly what really mattered in life.  Things that didn't bother me before, and things I never would have thought twice about after hearing, were now driving me crazy. 

For example, seeing new born baby pictures on Facebook with the caption "Blessed to have a healthy baby!"  Am I not blessed because my daughter wasn't healthy?  Or hearing, "My child has been sick for two weeks, I am SO tired and ready for this cold to go away."  Really?  Try dealing with a disease that you see every day of your child's life knowing that one day, this disease is going to take her life.  And, "Our kids drive us crazy.  We just need to get away.  We need a break from our kids."  I would give anything to spend one more minute with my child and you want to complain and get away from yours?

Then you see the picture perfect families on FaceBook, which I truly believe some are photo shopped.  I'll run in to people who I usually only see on Facebook and they look nothing like the pictures they post!  Sad.  I just want to grab these people and tell them, it's okay to not look perfect all the time.  Anyways, back on track .  I see people who want to give the impression that they have exactly what they always dreamed of.

We always dreamed of having two or three kids, they would be "x" amount of years apart, we would have a dog, our weekends would be spent watching our kids at sporting events, going to birthday parties, etc. It was my picture perfect dream. 

Why couldn't Shane and I have what we always dreamed and planned of having?  Why are we not able to see our Madison celebrating more birthdays, graduating kindergarten, playing sports, getting her driver's license, graduating high school, getting married, having children, etc. 

When I think I about what we are missing out on, I quickly think about what all we have gained.  This is not a tragedy that our Madison left this life early and that our life is not going the way we had planned.  I feel like if you are a believer in Jesus Christ, tragedy shouldn't even be in your vocabulary.  We REJOICE in knowing that Madison is in Heaven, made whole, and healed from the disease that she was born with.  Knowing that our child is going to spend ETERNITY in Heaven worshipping her Savior....THAT is what my dream is. 

God had other plans for us and thank goodness he did.  I have never learned to trust in Jesus more than I do now.  Now, my picture perfect dream is to live a God honoring life, trying to further his kingdom to the best of my ability.  I truly live every day for eternity.  This life seems so short when you think about where you will be for eternity.  These petty things that bother me now, won't matter in Heaven. 

I want to close this ranting post with a challenge for you.  We knew from an early age that our time with Madison was limited, so we had the opportunity that not every one gets.   We knew that every day we had with her, was going to be lived to the fullest.  None of us are guaranteed tomorrow.  What if you lost a child suddenly?  Would you have regrets?  But most importantly, would you have the promise of spending eternity with them? 

Our life may not be going the way that I planned, but thank goodness I have the promise of knowing that our family will be together for eternity and that should be every person's desire and dream. My prayer is that every parent will raise their child to know Jesus so they too can have this promise.